WOW what a crazy month! Or summer or year or whatever. The past couple of weeks have been pretty intense. God is GOOD. He's so tricky, too! (Well, not really because everything has already been planned, but you know.) He really does have the best timing & puts things together so perfectly. I cannot count the number of times I've been surprised & in awe of what God has done. Other times I get so confused because I don't understand why things are happening when I'm not ready, but who am I to say I'm not equipped?! I'm so foolish sometimes.
I was talking to my cousin (not Jainah, haha) & she asked me, "what if it was in God's plan for us to not be married?" Oh man! As girls, that's a tough thing to swallow. & I mean, what IF? That's a possibility. It took me a couple seconds & I concluded with, "well, we gotta be content with just being with God." ...& quickly followed up with, "that's a discipline I gotta work on some more."
Being content with God. AH that doesn't just apply to the question of marriage in the future, but in every aspect of our lives. I was talking to my good friend & I told him, what if it's in God's plan for us to be bankrupt, or to lose our closest friends & family members? Would I remember to be content with having God? When he was telling me of his struggles, he mentioned Job. Job was legit. In the very first chapter, Job lost his family & his property, & yet he dropped to his knees & WORSHIPED. Worshiped!! Blessed be the name of the Lord!
My joy needs to be rooted in my salvation, rooted in Christ-- NOT the things of this world, not things that are fleeting, not things that are perishable. I mean, what's the eternal perspective? To see brothers & sisters in heaven? To see the streets of gold? To sing with the angels? No way! If God wasn't in heaven, I could care less about going! In Revelation, John's total focus was on the throne of God. Actually, everyone's focus was on the throne of God. Ain't that somethin'?
God has blessed me with so many things & so many great people who love me. That isn't to say that being on God's team is an easy walk. If anything, it's harder. Philippians 1:29, "For it has been granted to you that for the sake of Christ you should not only believe in him but also suffer for his sake.." We're called to suffer. & that suffering doesn't end until Christ comes back to judge & reign. But my dear brothers & sisters, keep running the race!
"Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking to Jesus, the founder and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is seated at the right hand of the throne of God." --Hebrews 12:1-2.
Looking. To. Jesus. The "God-Man", 100% God yet 100% man, willingly sacrificed Himself, endured the wrath of God & conquered death, so that I may live & be labeled as "righteous" in God's sight, regardless of all the wrong & all the disappointments & all the mistakes. Amazing grace, indeed. How could I NOT be content with all that He is? How could I claim that I want, or even more boldly, NEED something more than that? How could I place ANYONE else higher on my priority list?
Run towards Him. Repent from the sins that you held so dearly & flee from them. How could I go back?
Lord, remind me that You are sufficient for me. May I continue to joyfully serve you & proclaim Your truth in every aspect of my life, whether it be school, finances, or even, if it is in Your will, marriage. The glory is Yours & Yours alone, no matter the outcome.
