Oh, Jonathan Edwards.

25. Resolved, to examine carefully, and constantly, what that one thing in me is which causes me in the least to doubt of the love of God; and to direct all my forces against it.

Legit.

Page 22.

I just finished reading the only devotional with a heading that almost made me tear up before the actual devotional. I guess it fit well with my present struggles. It hit home. Praise the Lord.

"How can a young man keep his way pure?
By guarding it according to your word.
With my whole heart I seek you;
let me not wander from your commandments!"
--Psalm 119:9-10.

Man, I am TIRED.

& I still have time for a blog post?
...yeah.

(Bear with me because I'm half awake.)
(If I were speaking, I'd be mumbling.)

(I like parentheses.)

Just wanna say how totally off my plan was tonight in comparison to God's. I wanted to sleep, but God had something else in mind. Not saying that God doesn't want me to rest, but hey, He threw me an opportunity & ..well, I took it. Although we've said it so many times already, the phrase of the month isn't "YOU FANCY" (that spread like a virus!), but personally I think it'd be: "TALK IT OUT." Been saying that enough times for it to stand out. Man, I don't like ending sentences with prepositions. Oh well.

Ummmm.

Let's just say there was a lot of talking these past few weeks. Not the most casual things, but they were the more important things. "Think about it, then DO IT." That saying doesn't apply everywhere, but it did in this case.

Ummmm.

Lots of praying to do tonight, I think.

Lots of.. talking out.. to do.
Yeah, I'm pretty sure of that.

I'm excited.

ROAR.
My head is spinning, & not because I'm tired, but because there's a lot to think about.....? (Alright, maybe because I'm tired.)

I'm tired of using "a lot"/"lots"... That's a terrible habit.

I'm all over the place in this post.

Basically, God is awesome.

& ridiculously merciful.

& incredibly holy.

& there's so much left to do!

But that's totally up to Him.

Just gotta be a faithful servant.

Okay I'm done.
Good...

morning.

"Full atonement," can it be?

“Man of Sorrows!” what a name
For the Son of God, who came
Ruined sinners to reclaim.
Hallelujah! What a Savior!

Bearing shame and scoffing rude,
In my place condemned He stood;
Sealed my pardon with His blood.
Hallelujah! What a Savior!

Guilty, vile, and helpless we;
Spotless Lamb of God was He;
“Full atonement!” can it be?
Hallelujah! What a Savior!

Lifted up was He to die;
“It is finished!” was His cry;
Now in Heav’n exalted high.
Hallelujah! What a Savior!

When He comes, our glorious King,
All His ransomed home to bring,
Then anew His song we’ll sing:
Hallelujah! What a Savior!

(Hallelujah! What A Savior! - Philip Bliss)

Ugh, an act of love that I can never comprehend...

I don't deserve any of it.

Hallelujah... What a Savior.

Here we go.

Answered prayer? Possibly...

Praise God for brothers & sisters who point me back to the Word & remind me of the joy in my salvation. Switching gears pretty soon & I'll admit that I'm nervous, but overall, I'm excited & eager to see what God has in store. (Man, I'm getting really nervous though, foreal. This always happens before I participate in anything, but once it starts, I'm good to go. The waiting period kills me.)

"The heart of man plans his way, but the Lord establishes his steps."
--Proverbs 16:9 (ESV).

Gotta back down & let God work things out.

Ultimately, His will is done.

& ultimately, He is glorified.