Off balance.

I suppose a tad of arrogance is going to get the best of me while writing this post, but is it wrong to want the same kind of treatment from someone you've known for years? I thought I was over it. Guess not.

Being best friends, you would think you'd be one of the first people to know about the different events in their life, especially about something that created such an impact-- literally. Having been in my first car accident at the mere age of 7, I am personally tugged by anyone's story. That crash almost directly hit my 3-year-old brother (who is now 14) & is still affecting my mother today, physically. Touchy subject, much?

It would've been nice to be informed of the accident. & by informed, I mean.. directly. Did I really just get the 411 from her Twitter? & perhaps more importantly, did she really just TWEET about it? She ended up in the ER. Already in a rush to leave the house to catch a church event, my flurry of worry, anger, & confusion faded off as the night continued, until I was reminded of it toward the end of the night. I received an update that she was fine & was out for dinner, which didn't make me feel any better. Relieved, I suppose, but still worried, angry, & confused. Worried because it was an accident that got her sent to the ER. I mean, what kind of accident happened to get her there? Angry because I've been trying to get her to open up more about everything by visiting her & sending her random notes, and yet I still feel that I don't get anything in return. Confused because I had bits & chunks of the story.

Now at this point, I'm blowing things out of proportion. I tried getting an update, expecting her to call me or something, but no, I only received the "long story short" in under 140 characters. That she was fine & still sore. Uh, okay. I guess the most important part is that she's fine & not dead (praise God), but I wish she could've told me.

I hope you know that I care so much about your well-being that I'm always trying to get you to go to church or a Bible Study. I hope you know that it hurts to always see you going out with friends who don't care about the same values as we do (or at least, as I do). I hope you know that it sucks to see you being influenced by this world. I'm really trying to pull you back in, but it's all up in prayers now.

I'd just like some reciprocity.
Nahmean?