I love & hate the shining moments of my priority list. Love, because it lets me see what I need to improve.. but hate, because it leaves me pretty ashamed & down in the dumps. I know I'm not perfect & the road to holiness is totally not a walk in the park so there's more love than hate, although it would still require both of them to really get someone moving. Not only do I need to work on discipline, but definitely compassion. I've found myself apologizing more than usual these days. Lord, have mercy.
I've also been all over the mood scale lately. Happy, worried, excited, scared, really happy, really devastated, nervous, relieved, bitter, uncertain-- but I suppose it's good that I wasn't.. angry? Is that what's missing? Meh, the good news: I'm not completely heartless. Huzzah.
Clearly, it's been somewhat sporadic (it shows in my writing, huh); a lot has happened but those moments feel far from my reach. I've just been reading the Word whenever I get the chance & honestly, those moments are what I remember best. "If your law had not been my delight, I would have perished in my affliction" (Ps. 119:93). I'm super grateful for the Scriptures. Now... action. Word in, Word out.
Anyhoos, I am very, very, very blessed to have my brothers & sisters in Christ, plusss God-fearing parents with whom I am happy to run this race. They are absolutely incredible.
Tell me why it's taken me an hour to vaguely type up what's been on my mind. Pro stats.
Hello 3:34am.
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