There are these nights

when I just wanna blog, but I'm never quite sure what to blog about. I mean, I usually have an idea but the words don't flow out very smoothly & that's a bit frustrating. It's cold, I'm sleepy, & I have a slight headache, but my hair is still wet.

There are a lot of "but"s in this post (ha-ha).
Reminds me of this!

"And you were dead in your trespasses and sins, in which you formerly walked according to the course of this world, according to the prince of the power of the air, of the spirit that is now working in the sons of disobedience. Among them we too all formerly lived in the lusts of our flesh, indulging the desires of the flesh and of the mind, and were by nature children of wrath, even as the rest. But God, being rich in mercy, because of His great love with which He loved us, even when we were dead in our transgressions, made us alive together with Christ (by grace you have been saved), and raised us up with Him, and seated us with Him in the heavenly places in Christ Jesus, so that in the ages to come He might show the surpassing riches of His grace in kindness toward us in Christ Jesus. For by grace you have been saved through faith; and that not of yourselves, it is the gift of God; not as a result of works, so that no one may boast. For we are His workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand so that we would walk in them."

--Ephesians 2:1-10, nasb (emphasis mine).

Still blows my mind.

Bah, forget coherence, I'm just gonna type.

There's so much to do... Sometimes I wonder if I'm making any progress at all, but then I start praying & realizing just how much is being done under His sovereignty & within His timing. Not to excuse my responsibilities or anything, because that's definitely important... I don't know, I'm really praying that I can be more selfless. & also, it's easy for me to focus on my shortcomings because that's what I'm used to-- all sorts of standards. Praise the Lord for Christ because His standard is certainly one that I could never meet. So yeah, I guess it's a past struggle that I'm still working on to this day. I'm pleasing God, not man, yeah? Yeah.

Man, my hair is still wet & I'm TIIIIRED. I'll just read for the remainder of the night.

By the way, these songs have been on repeat in my head.

[1] [2] & as a Valentine's Day bonus, [3].
(Uh hello, free music from Priscilla Ahn? Yes please.)

Oh, & [4] because it's ridiculously catchy. & Disney.
Pretty much a makes-me-wanna-dance kind of tune.