Nostalgia.

I know I told myself that I would go to bed soon, but I really need to spill this out before I start dreaming about WHS people again.

Yeah, everyone was so excited for college; making new friends, taking fun classes, getting out there. I agree, it's pretty fun, but I can't help but miss my friends, I guess. I always said I wanted change, and I got it. Adjusting takes time. Finally week 4 of college and I've kind of gotten an idea of who my potential friends are in my classes. "Potential friends", haha that sounds kinda mean. They're more than acquaintances... but not really friend status? I hope you understand. It takes me a while to really develop friendships, though at times I find myself opening up to certain people pretty easily. That makes it a bit easier once in a while. I kind of wish I knew what I wanted to do with my life before I started figuring out my college plan. Dorming & such would make it alot easier to find freshmen who are going through the same experience as you, but I've found myself at a community college. I don't even think the "freshmen" term really exists in the sense that we would normally put it. A freshman class could mean age 17 to... who knows? Maybe even younger than 17, for those young geniuses. I guess that's why I'm finding it a bit difficult. Loneliness has been creeping up on me a bit more often than I'd like it to. I don't think I'm trying hard enough. I really just wish that people can come up & talk to me for once. I'm not that intimidating... right? -_-

You know the WHS people in my court? There were 12 of them, actually. Best friends. Yet as of September..21st, I believe, they'll all be miles away from me. All of them. Actually, except for one, but he's got a good handful of friends at his college. I don't know. It's kinda hard trying to hang out with the majority of them before they leave, but I guess I got at least a day with each of them. Gah, I need to suck it UPPP and just really try to live it up. I don't knowwwwwww.

I need to stop starting every freaking sentence with "I". A bit selfish, nahmean? This blog needs a bit more "us" & "we". It'll probably take a few more weeks. At least I get to start over again next semester? I don't know. Gah, there I go again. I.

P.S. Actually, someone started the conversation this time in my Psych class. That made me happy.

P.P.S. The loneliness is nice, sometimes. Good reflection times, good blogs. Plus, I save money. Very, very good.