MunchMunch.

Written away from a computer, while eating a California Burrito, about an hour ago:

Finally, some legit downtime. I guess I just haven’t had the time to finally write something. Nor did I ever really have the motivation. But! I am in an insightful type of mood again & it’s nice.

I’m sure some people want to hear about Oktoberfest. Shoots, I bet my future self would like to know about it. But honestly, there’s not much to say. I guess my excitement kind of drifted off, partly because of how I actually felt being there. Does that make sense? It felt like a chill hangout with a bunch of friends. Sure, there were introductions to be made, but it was just so easy to get along with everyone & talk to people I’ve already been talking to for more than a month already. There wasn’t a craze or massive battle to get to the front of the stage or anything. At least, that goes for the people I knew. As far as huge fans go, we were actually more towards the back. Others were chilling backstage. Oh, & I got my first “Are you Loris.. from BlogTV?!” right before the performances started. That was so weird! I knew it was fricking weird when I’d get the random “Hi Loris!<333” from people I barely knew on Blog. I would just be polite & say hello back. I’m not that great, guys, but it goes to show you just how much time I spend on the internet. :[ It’s turned out for the better, though! So many friends (: I’ve been so afraid of making friends who are similar to me, whether it be through speech, religion, hobbies. I suppose some of them are a bit too outspoken, but that’s what so nice about them. It’s just so important to be yourself & be real whether it’s through the internet or not. I’d like to think that being real was the legit reason as to why I can talk to so many people. & the ones I’ve grown closer to are the realest people I’ve found & come to slowly learn to trust. It’s impacted me in such a way as to encourage me to pull more Christian friends into my life, & to appreciate music so much more than I thought I already had. I’ve even become friends with so many legit, talented musicians. No joke, the most real person I found on BlogTV was Rei (& I know you’re reading this now!) which was why I stuck around her channel for so long. I guess I have her to thank for… increasing my circle of friends? For lack of a better phrase. JP, Carl, & Richard should be thanking her too, because they’re linked to me. & if I weren’t friends (or were we acquaintances..) with Rei in the first place, KBBQ date wouldn’t have happened & I wouldn’t have invited those 3 boys.

I… went on a very long tangent. Hah. But I’m sure Rei appreciated that, shoooot. Hahah. Overall, Oktoberfest was chill (& fun, of course) (: whether I went to Albertacos or not. (I’m at Albertacos right now, by the way.)
More things that my Psych Prof said:“We have learned, as a society, how to suppress our emotions.” Sad.& on the topic of genuinely asking about how someone is doing: “Don’t you think we’ve learned how to put on a façade?”

Oh, & as I was walking here, I heard a car radio playing The Scientist by Coldplay. “Nobody said it was easy.” That’s all I heard.

Go figure.