Relief.

2:25 AM, longest day ever, & only now do I choose to blog. I'm crazy sometimes. (But only sometimes.)

I haven't been blogging much, or journaling. In fact, I haven't touched my journal in days. Nor my guitar. School is such a bust, foreal. There's just so much to do & I really wanna own it up. & if it meant sacrificing some things, so be it. This is my future.

I've actually been doing less of almost everything I used to do when I had so much free time. Less emailing, myspacing, facebooking (actually, MORE facebook -_-), youtubing, limewiring, blogspotting, blogTV-ing, journaling, AIM-ing, eating, drinking, journaling, walking, texting, talking. These days I just wanna block everything out & have some time to myself for once, without another to-do list. Winter break is so close, but so far. There's a part of me that just wants to forget everything & take an easy path to winter break, but then there's a bigger part of me that says, "Loris, slow down. Battle through & EARN your winter break." I think that's what keeps me working-- besides all the praying.

But you know what's definitely been helping me cope? My previous entry. You don't know how many times I've read it since I posted it. I come back to my blog constantly just to read it. Whenever I feel stressed out or just empty in general, I read it. Knowing that I have such a huge, loving support system gives me reassurance that I can get through this. It kind of pushes me to get through school; I mean, I'm super stoked to make plans with them. They helped me out alot these past couple of months & I'm excited to just give them hugs & finally have catch-up sessions & whatnots. Being reminded of my friends, my family, my God-- it really calms me down & motivates me at the same time.

Just wanted to say thank you, once again.

Wow. 2:45 -____- Lame. Kbye.