Reconnect.

It’s been a couple of months since it all began, but only recently have we began to talk consistently. Of course, others would expect me to assume that this is a time of new beginnings, of forgiveness, of change. & also, like always, they would expect negative outcomes over a certain timespan. Unfortunately, time and time again, they’ve proven themselves to be correct, and I am repeatedly disappointed in the fact that some things are just meant to be left behind. Tell me this: Once you’ve found something that changes your perspectives and your life in its entirety, and one major flaw fails you, can you leave it without struggle? I’ve found myself providing one too many chances, but over time I’ve learned to deal with it. These chances have reaped both good things and bad things; many times, I’m left with the bad things overwhelming the good. Every time, I tell myself, “I’m done. That’s it,” yet with each attempt at closure, I’m disheartened.

We’re in that middle point again, where we find that everything is going well and no one cares to interrupt. Instead, they watch. They watch and wait for things to fall apart. Perhaps this will work out for once. We’re in college now; people must have grown up.

Fingers crossed; let’s see some change.